What a year. Getting ready to start a new chapter in my life. I'm in the process of getting ready. Whether I'll actually be prepared is another beast entirely.
In this new chapter, I'll be surrounded by a new cast of characters in a sparkling, new setting. The most noticeable change, however, is that many of the reocurig characters will be missing this time. Some will make guest appearances or brief cameos here and there. Some won't.
Time is a cruel master. It convinces you that you're safe until you're literally in the jaws of the monster. Then it's like "Oopsie! My bad, probably should have warned you, but it's not my problem."
It's a bad feeling to wake up one day and realize that you're too weak to keep up. "If only I had actually gotten my butt in gear way back in the spring, maybe I could have had a fighting chance..."
Once again, a false sense of security and procrastination have overcome my will to just do it.
"Sometimes to stay alive you have to kill your mind"
They're slipping away, right through my fingers. I have two months until I say goodbye, but it looks like I already misused my window of opportunity. If only I had known how short it actually was.. no, if only I had actually tried while I had the chance instead of squandering away my time.
Feels like I'm mourning all over again.
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