Ok, so I've been talking to my friend Neon for about a week now. We've talked about everything from personal fears to having boobs. It's great xD Never felt so free in my life. I can just come home from a stressful day at school and let it all out. He's my perfect safe zone.
It started as a part, a sort of challenge or game where each agreed to ask whatever we wanted, and answer with complete honesty to the best of our abilities.
Today in particular, he finally shared his "explanation" regarding my past incidents. Basically, he believes my dreams and experiences are extensions of a state of overlap where I allowed myself to be vulnerable to otherworldy contact. I'm close to believing him.
So, tonight and this week, I'll watch and rewatch the source of my fears in attempt to find some answers. Maybe it'd be better to undergo hypnosis and remember what he said, but I'm going to find out for myself. God help me come back intact if I do stare into his lifeless eyes again. I can't do this on my own. Terrified.
Wish me the best of luck. In case I don't come back, tell my family I love them, and that I dearly love my friends Sydney, Chad, Carlee, and Tej. Isaiah wouldn't be able to take it...
Goodnight :)
Edit: May 5, 2015
Day 1, nothing happened. I survived the night unscathed, though I've already begin to show signs of paranoia.
May 6, 2015
Day 2, nothing happened, but I saved myself the trouble as I was going on 5 hours of sleep with two essays due the next day. No way in heck I'm taking that risk... I'll try again tonight. 'Til next time~
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